Those were the two words that I've wanted to blurt out.
Then it happened. Well about two weeks ago, I finally ended my long term relationship with my job in the BPO industry for the main reason that I wasn't happy anymore. Mag-jowa lang? Haha! Kiddin' aside, I still tried to hang on and thought that maybe it was just, yet again, another phase. But it stayed inside. The feeling grew selfishly in me that it made me think deeper as to where my life is heading and what I really want to do.
Back in 2010 I started working when I was 19 or 20 just so I can support myself and be independent. I was a "troubled" and not much of an ideal student back in college. I did not want to depend too much on my parents and I kind of messed up along the way so to avoid any further confrontations, I knew I had to deal with it myself. That's when I tried to do some job hunts which I thought was an easy way out. Luckily, I easily got into the call center industry because they're the ones who wouldn't really require you to have a diploma along with your resume, just as long as you're equipped with basic english skills and have the needed twang then most definitely you'll easily blend in. I was so excited back then that I didn't mind travelling all the way from Laguna to Alabang and back and forth any time of the day because hey, it's my first friggin job OMG!!! :) I couldn't be any happier during that time. As the years passed by, I've learned quite a lot of things and when I say a lot, I really mean A LOT. Did I just say A LOT thrice already? Haha. I had to first deal with customers in the US and answer their inquiries about their credit card applications then was just recently transferred to technical support which for the record, I TOTALLY HATE btw. The stress level to the nth power!! Mygulayy! So anyways, I've met some of my most treasured friends and the sweet loving mommies in the office who treat me like a baby girl everytime they see me (which I actually love btw hehe) was an added bonus. They're mostly the reason why I stayed. Of course there will always be these good-for-nothing people who are always present in attendance when it comes to putting people down and still manage to go on top just because they're degree holders of BS in Stepping Down On Agents Masters in Kissing A$s. Haha! Was that too harsh? Sorry but I'm not sorry. Bato bato sa langit ang tamaan, pakyu po! Haha I've managed to deal with different kinds of people and definitely learned a thing or two. Oh heck, overall was a rollercoaster ride for me. Sure thing.
So days before I turned 24, I realized that it's time for me to move into the next chapter of my life. Try something new and do it while I'm still young. Can you actually believe that? I honestly don't know how to start from scratch but for whatever reason, I'm glad I made that decision. No regrets. I don't want to be a hypocrite but to be honest, I've learned a lot from working 4 years straight in a matured environment surrounded by stressed out mothers and burned out dads while smoking ciggs outside during breaks much more than what I could probably learn in a place filled with raging-hormones-and-identity-crisis-stricken college students who got nothing else to do but rant all day long. (Lol thats so me back then tho.) But yea who wouldn't want a diploma as a gift to their p'rents right? In time, maybe. Yes in God's perfect time.
So to cut the story short, here I am, doing my thing. My thing back in 2010. The same exact thing that I've been doing back when I was 19. Eat, sleep, blog and repeat. I've never been this free again. There's not much inside my wallet though, but what the heck, I know I'm gonna be somewhere else anytime soon. Somewhere much more promising. I mean, even right at this moment while typing this I switch tabs while doing my job search. Hehe But on a side note, I'm trying out a different path. Yepp. Something that I actually haven't tried yet perhaps. I mean, I can always go back to the call center industry but my age is not getting any younger. So why waste it and have regrets later in life, right? God will lead my way. I'm pretty sure of that. xo -A
